Let's get real here.
Like you, I felt lonely, even in the company of people who loved me like crazy.
There was always this sense of something missing, but I just thought everyone must feel that way.
I attracted partner after partner who couldn't love me the way I needed to be loved. The truth was, I didn't even know how to have needs, let alone what they were, or how to ask for them to be met.
I thought I "loved myself" because I did yoga, meditated, took baths, read books on self-love, and fed myself nutritious food.
But there was still something that kept me vaguely but deeply unsatisfied, running from one project and partner to the next.
Now, I know that the thing I was running from was intimacy with myself. I was habitually and unconsciously turning away from the parts of myself that most needed my loving attention. The parts that were vulnerable. The parts that hurt from long ago. That was the core of the emptiness inside.
I had no idea that it could be different. I had no idea that it was possible to be filled from the inside with the warmth of my own precious heart. To feel truly at home in myself, and thus to know the meaning of inner peace.
I'm here to tell you that it's not only possible, but very much within reach. This peace is as close as your own breath. We just need someone to help us find the way in.
My mission in the world is to offer this revelation to you. I am here to end emotional loneliness and help you, dear soul, to awaken intimacy within, and feel at peace with yourself.
All my work centers on this mission. Whether you work with me personally, listen to my free recorded healing meditations on Insight Timer, take a class from me, or listen to my podcast, you will get closer to yourself.
In order to build intimacy (into-me-see) within, we must choose to truly see our past and reclaim our abandoned parts. This is why the path to self-intimacy as I see it is shadow work.
Learn more about my own method of shadow work here.
If you want to know a little more about me, read on:
I have a BA in Philosophy from Reed College (2006), and an MA in German from the University of Oregon (2010).
I've been giving astrology readings since 2008, and wrote my Masters thesis on the role of astrology in Goethe's Faust (you can Google it if you really want to).
From 2006-8, I lived in Austria as a Fulbright Teaching Assistant, teaching English and working as an American cultural docent.
I was full-time faculty at Oregon State University for six years (2010-16) teaching all levels of German language, as well as history, politics, film, and more. I received several teaching awards and ended up on the cover of an OSU magazine for my development of pioneering online programs.
I am a certified trauma-informed yoga teacher, and have completed many hours of training in trauma-sensitive movement instruction, notably through the Trauma Healing Project in Eugene, OR, and Street Yoga and Kamala Mind Body Wellness in Seattle.
In 2016, I completed a 22-hour domestic violence survivor support program through New Beginnings in Seattle.
From 2016-18, I taught yoga and mindfulness in inpatient psychiatric hospitals in the Seattle area, working with adults and adolescents diagnosed with a wide variety of psychiatric conditions.
I attended Bastyr University's Masters in Counseling Psychology graduate program for six months (2016-17), until I realized that my true calling was not as a mental health counselor.
In 2017, I became a Usui / Holy Fire II Reiki Master Teacher through Melinda Prakash Kaur.
In 2018, I completed a training in the Authentic Voice expressive arts therapy modality with its founder, Nina "Anin" Utigaard.
In 2019, I completed the course Activate Your Inner Jaguar, based on the deep nervous system recalibration methods of Somatic Experiencing® and Organic Intelligence®, taught by Kimberly Ann Johnson.
In 2020, I completed the 18-hour In-Depth Psoas Workshop with Liz Koch, focusing on methods of fluid somatic movement and release, and its role in healing trauma and harmful social conditioning.
Last but most certainly not least, I'm a proud toddler mama to Gabriela, and the very happy wife of my husband, Carlos.